Took a personal day on Saturday; ran to Haymarket and back again, and now I have more fruit than I can eat for the next few days. I don’t remember Boston traffic being this bad – the car exhaust gave me a pretty bad headache by the time I got to government center – but otherwise, excellent run, excellent fruit, and I feel better/more stable/more productive than I have for a while.



This is how I feel these days. Like as if my words aren’t coming to me the way that they should. I misspell things now; I didn’t used to misspell things nearly as much.

I might take a break from this blog. Until I get my words back.

I’m sorry,


Lab results

….are back

These are the pre-lithium labs, and I’m confused/not particularly happy about several of the numbers, but whatever.

First, creatinine: .89 mg/dL for a fairly small two-X chromosome person feels….slightly high… me. Not technically considered abnormal yet (the normal range is 0.50-1.10) but when you take into account that I don’t weigh very much and have not that much muscle, well….

I have to admit I’m worried. This is a number I want to watch. This is, I don’t know, not grounds to actually see what an inulin test would say, but enough for me to raise an eyebrow and check this number again.

TSH, TSH seems to be reasonable for me. (It’s actually better than I though it would be, which is reassuring). 1.48 mIU/L

I had a hunch about vitamin D, so I asked for a vitamin D test, and, well, they’re actually slightly low. Hum. I’m slightly confused by this, actually. I’m not sure why my vitamin D levels are low (sunlight? kidneys? liver?), but, *sigh*. Would like to get to the bottom of this, probably can’t, probably should just drop $20 on some D3 supplements.

……actual blogging content to come eventually, I promise.

Lithium Update

I appear to be one of the lucky group who’s ~side effect free from lithium. I’m on a fairly low does (900mg/day), but the only (only!) things that have been happening have roughly been:

  • If I let myself get dehydrated (shockingly easy, this is better phrased as “If I drink less than 1.5L of water a day”) I will get some combination of: lithium aftertaste, nausea, and mild headache. Not really much of a problem, since drinking water pretty much prevents this.
  • Hunger has been doing weird patterns; I’m either hungry all day, no matter how much (or little) I eat, or not hungry at all (which is my normal state, afaik). I’m doing worse at remembering to eat than I usually do, which isn’t particularly great. Not sure why this is a thing again, though.
  • My memory is ~useless. Go figure. It’s like my brain just gets stuck in places where it shouldn’t. I completely forgot my own phone number today at CVS and nearly told them my phone number was 617-253-…. (ie, an MIT phone number.) Oops. Then had to look my actual phone number up. I’ve been worse at spelling things correctly, worse at thinking, worse at remembering words in general. Slightly scary, actually. Possibly part of the reason why I haven’t been blogging lately; words don’t come to me the way they used too.

And as for how much it’s working…sort of. It takes the edges off, I’d say. Like if I was at 4sin(5t) earlier, I’m around 3sin(t) now. Better, not perfect, but to a point where I can manage the rest. It’s amusing because I’m now back to cycling slowly enough that you can see the cycles in my sleep again – ie they’re longer than a day.

That said, I’m….not really okay with staying on lithium forever; I’m twenty, so fairly young, so I’d rather explore, let’s say, medications that are less toxic to the kidneys long term. Managed to talk pdoc into letting me see if a switch to Lamictal works. Hopefully it does 😀